One thing I’ve noticed when I come across it myself, in my personal life, or with others that will speak to me of such matters, is that anytime they start to develop an interest in reading the Bible and seeking what God has to say (yes, even in the Word that speaks through this day and age), is that they are almost always under attack spiritually speaking. There is always some level of spiritual warfare that starts to kick in to try to keep them from researching and reading. It might not always be from the beginning of their journey, but it will always come in and will always try to cause them (or myself) to stumble. (Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour: -1 Peter 5:8)
You will learn as you grow in your faith that these trials and attacks will always come. They will always try to cause you to fall away from what you believe, what new things God is trying to teach you, and what good He is trying to bring into your life. The point is to keep going. Keep moving. Keep growing.
God will provide for you in all of your needs and he sees all that happens and goes on. There is nothing hidden from him. He’s there when we need him, and in a lot of cases for me, he’s there in ways that I’m unaware. (The Lord looketh from heaven; he beholdeth all the sons of men. – Psalm 33:13)
I might have times when I struggle and cry out – much like a child that is wailing at the scuffed knee they just received from playing. And although the tears may be there, the anguish I think that I am feeling is actually not as much of an emergency as it may feel. The enemy is very good at causing us to feel as though our world is collapsing all around us and we have to hurry, grasping at anything we can, to survive the unimaginable pit slowly caving in below us.
This of course is not actually the case, God is always there watching over those who love him. We cannot go through life in complete bliss or we will never be tested ourselves. Our faith will never be put under tests and trials to see what we can endure and how much we actually depend on him.
Never forget that He is there. He watches and cares for us throughout the day and night, regardless of if you are aware. He ministers to us in our darkest hours as long as we keep focused on him.
I would encourage any and all of you to continue to seek his face, despite how you may feel. Through all the darkness He is the Light. He will always help us find our way, we just need to trust in him that even while we dwell in darkness for a time being we will come to his Light and be lifted up from where we are.
Seek others to pray and fellowship. To learn and grow with along your way. It’s one of the many ways to console us as we are in a world full of darkness and void of light. Continue to grow and pray with each other, always watching the times around you, be aware of your surroundings and seek what is important. Remember what will fade away and what will remain. Christ remains in all of us and is, was, and will be forevermore.