Often times as time goes on I tend to forget a lot of the things of the past. I’m sure most people could say this. Typically I have a very good memory for things done or said in general and can recall or recount conversations on who said what, in what order, and so on.
This does not seem to always be the case, however. I find that in painful situations I tend to block out a lot of what was said or done most likely as a coping mechanism of not knowing how to deal with the pain.
When someone mentions being offended or hurt in by others I am instantly worried that I am included in that group of offenders. Then the devil comes in to try and accuse me, causing mass amounts of guilt and anxiety.
I have started to learn to try and stop, reflect, remember, and pray about these situations. If I cannot remember anything I might have said or done that cause someone else grief then I probably haven’t.
When the Lord corrects you on something you do, it is not through feelings of fear and anxiety. If I have not been corrected by the Lord then I probably don’t need correction in that area I am fretting over.
In the past I used to get caught up in that trick quite often. I would have past friendships that had fallen apart through hurt and disdain only to later forget most of what was said and felt I had done something terribly wrong. I would even sometimes reach out to some of these people to apologize and come to find out they were just as heartless to me when I sought forgiveness as they were when we parted ways. That is not to say I have never done or said anything wrong or that I have never accidentally or intentionally hurt anyone, though I try never to do that.
Either way, the devil will try to trick you by giving you false guilt and shame for things you had nothing to do with or things you had not even done. If you ever doubt in these situations ask the Lord for help and He will help you. He is our help in a time of trouble.
Psalms 91:1-16 KJV
He that dwelleth in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.
I will say of the LORD, He is my refuge and my fortress: my God; in him will I trust.
Surely he shall deliver thee from the snare of the fowler, and from the noisome pestilence.
He shall cover thee with his feathers, and under his wings shalt thou trust: his truth shall be thy shield and buckler.
Thou shalt not be afraid for the terror by night; nor for the arrow that flieth by day;
Nor for the pestilence that walketh in darkness; nor for the destruction that wasteth at noonday.
A thousand shall fall at thy side, and ten thousand at thy right hand; but it shall not come nigh thee.
Only with thine eyes shalt thou behold and see the reward of the wicked.
Because thou hast made the LORD, which is my refuge, even the most High, thy habitation;
There shall no evil befall thee, neither shall any plague come nigh thy dwelling.
For he shall give his angels charge over thee, to keep thee in all thy ways.
They shall bear thee up in their hands, lest thou dash thy foot against a stone.
Thou shalt tread upon the lion and adder: the young lion and the dragon shalt thou trample under feet.
Because he hath set his love upon me, therefore will I deliver him: I will set him on high, because he hath known my name.
He shall call upon me, and I will answer him: I will be with him in trouble; I will deliver him, and honour him.
With long life will I satisfy him, and shew him my salvation.