Covering up many struggles

When we focus on one struggle are we covering up the real one?

Are we able to see it?

Is it the one causing us so much grief internally, subconsciously, yet we can’t see it?

How often do we focus on the wrong struggle and not realize the underlying root?

It’s easy to do, especially when pain is involved.

It’s easy to not trust the Lord and in our hearts not believe He has good in store for us. It’s easy to believe we are so terrible we must deserve all of our anguish and afflictions.

Of course this is something that every other Christian would look down upon. We’re supposed to know better, aren’t we? We’re supposed to never struggle and our lives are supposed to be so easy, right? Where in the Bible does it say that? Persecution is around every corner, whether from the devil or man. Struggles are real, evident, and we’re told of them throughout the entire Bible, if you really do read it.

I’ve struggled most of my life, though I wasn’t always aware of it until more recently. I’ve been in pain since birth, though I had no understanding. I’ve been wounded and in anguish, though I’ve had no words to explain it. I’ve been bruised my whole life, though it hid subconsciously. It still hides from me though I can feel it deep down, somewhere, without words to express it. This thing or darkness inside that I have had no knowledge of. This overwhelming pain that has plagued me, though I never understood.

Jeremiah 29:11-14
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.
Then shall ye call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you.
And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart.
And I will be found of you, saith the LORD: and I will turn away your captivity, and I will gather you from all the nations, and from all the places whither I have driven you, saith the LORD; and I will bring you again into the place whence I caused you to be carried away captive.

As Christians (or not) we have all doubted God. We have all gone through times of not trusting in Him. I don’t think there has ever been a human alive that hasn’t questioned their future in the eyes of God or His plan for their life.

Do you believe the scripture above?

Do you REALLY believe it?

Do you believe it in your heart?

I admit I struggle with it. I often look to those verses for encouragement for myself.
When personal pain outweighs the understanding we have of His love toward us the simple solution or answer is that we don’t understand His love. It’s difficult to grasp and everyone has struggled with it. I admit I struggle. I admit I do not understand Christ’s love for me. I admit I do not understand all the things I have gone through, some of which I am not even aware of yet.
Do I have hope that I will someday? I believe at times I do, if I stop and think about it. Or I at least try to.

When you’ve grown up with distrust being your closest friend it overpowers the longing you have for true companionship and real love. Love that only comes from the true Father.
I didn’t understand that until a few years ago.

Pain is real. Anguish is real. Anyone who has truly gone through either or both knows how difficult it can be.

I admit I have asked the Lord so many times to take me home. I can honestly say that’s the main thing I look forward to someday.
Does that make me sound suicidal? I don’t believe it does. Why?
Shouldn’t every Christian have a strong desire to be with the Lord? To want it so badly that they would forsake everyone else they have ever known or met just to be with Him?

I would forsake all just to be with Him for eternity.

But it’s not my time and I realize my desire is selfish.

I admit that one of the only things that keeps me going is that I know there is work to be done for His sake. I love Him enough to admit that I must forsake my desire so I can carry out what He needs me to do here.
Could He get someone else to do it? Yes, but He created me for something specific. He created all of us for something very specific and I care more about carrying out His plan and His goal than I do my own desires.

We are all created for a purpose. I know I love Him enough that I don’t want to disappoint Him. I don’t want to let Him down the way I have been let down. I want to show Him how much I love Him by standing firm in the path He sets before me. And if I can’t stand I will crawl. And if I can’t crawl I will wait for Him to pick me up and carry me through.

As far as pain and anguish, the goal is to let it go. The goal is to trust all of that pain to the Lord. To take it and say, “Lord, I have no idea what to do with this and it hurts so bad. Please take it because I can’t stand it. I can’t take it anymore, Lord.”

When there’s no possibility for any human to relieve your pain then it needs supernatural relief from the Lord.

My pain still haunts me, but it comes from deep wounds I was unaware of until last year. I do not know the extent of my wounds, nor do I know how many there are. But He knows and He’s already got a plan (I admit, it still scares me).

Wounds can be like trees. You can see the struggles that are more evident in branches and leaves, and although you may fight with them they will always come back. They will always regrow until you take out the root system of that tree.

The title of this post is “Covering up many struggles” and that’s what I have been doing. I have been so focused on one particular struggle I have had that I had been ignoring the underlying root. I was fighting a branch when I think the problem stems from deep, deep roots.
I see that now, though I admit I still don’t know where to go from here.

We can’t see the next step until we’re shown.
You can’t be shown until you seek.
You can’t also be shown until you stop and listen.
You can’t listen until you be still.

Seek. Be still and Listen.

On to the next step:
Sometimes, what you may find, is that the next step can be taken for you.
You just have to learn to trust and give it a shot. What is there to lose? It wont make your pain worse (maybe slightly more evident if you’ve been trying to bury it).

What if the pain can be stopped?
What if it can be removed?
What about it being replaced with something so much better?

You don’t have that capability in you. Only Christ does. Let Him work.

Grieve if you must, but let Him take control. You’ve had control long enough.

My soul, wait thou only upon God; for my expectation is from him. -Psalm 62:5

What I tell you in darkness, that speak ye in light

What I tell you in darkness, that speak ye in light: and what ye hear in the ear, that preach ye upon the housetops.
Matthew 10:27 KJV

I used to read this verse and it always made me think of the Bible. It made me think of spreading the Word of God and witnessing to others, possibly in the streets or wherever they might listen.
It wasn’t until tonight when I heard someone read it aloud that I realized that goes for what the Lord tells us personally as well. His Word is true. What He speaks never goes against His own Word.
I probably haven’t been doing enough speaking lately.

I keep rereading this verse and wondering about the spiritual significance of “What I tell you in darkness, speak ye in light”
What are your thoughts?

What I tell you in darkness, that speak ye in light: and what ye hear in the ear, that preach ye upon the housetops.
Matthew 10:27 KJV

Are we, the children, free?

Matthew 17:24 And when they were come to Capernaum, they that received tribute money came to Peter, and said, Doth not your master pay tribute?
17:25 He saith, Yes. And when he was come into the house, Jesus prevented him, saying, What thinkest thou, Simon? of whom do the kings of the earth take custom or tribute? of their own children, or of strangers? 
17:26 Peter saith unto him, Of strangers. Jesus saith unto him, Then are the children free.
17:27 Notwithstanding, lest we should offend them, go thou to the sea, and cast an hook, and take up the fish that first cometh up; and when thou hast opened his mouth, thou shalt find a piece of money: that take, and give unto them for me and thee.

And of whom do we pay tribute in our own country? Think about it.

When I get Married…

When we get married, which will hopefully be sooner than later, we do not intend to get a marriage license unless the Lord says otherwise. I haven’t really talked about this to many people (not that I have many people to talk to it about) and I know there are some concerns about it from some, though not all.
Who was it that sanctified marriage to begin with?
Genesis 2:24 KJV  Therefore shall a man leave his father and his mother, and shall cleave unto his wife: and they shall be one flesh.
What many do not see is that we DO NOT have to obtain a marriage license to be married in God’s eyes. We do not have to have the government tell us what we have to do in order to be married.
Let’s take a look at the definition of “license”

license noun

1. formal permission from a governmental or other constituted authority to do something, as to carry on some business or profession.
2. a certificate, tag, plate, etc., giving proof of such permission; official permit: a driver’s license.
3. permission to do or not to do something.
4. intentional deviation from rule, convention, or fact, as for the sake of literary or artistic effect: poetic license.
5.exceptional freedom allowed in a special situation.
6.excessive or undue freedom or liberty.

If you actually start looking into these things you will begin to learn that our government (in the U.S.) has dubbed marriage as “illegal” leaving you to have to get a license (or permit) to get married.
I have been married before (legally) and looking back, it bothers me that God is not in the actual process, besides a ceremony, of actually being married. He is replaced by the state.

Anyway, I’m not going to get into the details of all of that right now. Last I checked I am still free in this country (for now) to marry whom I want and it doesn’t actually have to be under the state/government.
Brandon found a website of another couple that has done similar to what we plan on doing. If you’re interested here’s the link: http://ncrenegade.com/education/how-do-i-get-married-without-a-license/

The spirit of Blindness

Though in some ways we are all blind and it is through Christ that our eyes are opened, there are still many out there that have not had their eyes opened fully. Some seem to have a blind spirit attached to them. I’ve come across many, in person, online, through best-selling Christian books, that are so convinced that they have found the REAL truth. Some claim that God speaks to them regularly but at a closer inspection their fruits are corrupted.
If confronted they become immediately defensive when questioned about what this spirit is telling them or what they may be seeing. Many read the Bible and will continually use scripture but neglect holding up scripture to their own experiences. It’s easy to take scripture and apply it to any idea that may come into your head, claiming that is the true meaning of the verse, and it is another thing to be seeking discernment to understand what God is actually saying.
Through defensiveness some will become angry and lash out at any who may question them. Some claim, through much pride, that they do not follow any teachings of man but that of Christ. The irony is that they expect everyone else to trust their own words (them being of man) and anyone that tries to question or compare their teachings to scripture is accused of not being a true follower of Christ.

Why is it important to test the spirits?

Beloved, believe not ever spirit, but try the spirits whether they are of God: because many false prophets are gone out into the world. – 1 John 4:1

Christ had already warned the disciples that false prophets and teachers had come into the world. Many were skewing what He was teaching to gain their own followers for their own desires.

When some are questioned about what they are hearing, seeing, or studying they can immediately become defensive and often the conversation is changed in a way (usually taking the questions as personal attacks) that will make no sense to the one doing the questioning.
They do not understand that it is not so much their own words in question but the spirit that may be speaking to them. I’ve come across some that when given straight biblical points as to why I might question what they are sharing they have an apparent change in tone to one that is aggressive. Afterwards they move on to personal attacks, which don’t quite work considering some do not know enough about me personally, and attempt to build themselves back up to a self-justified state of mind.
Some seem to have not only a spirit of blindness but a spirit of confusion as well. Biblical truths brought up that should end all debates of their arguments are often ignored or the subject is quickly changed to argue another point. All the while it is clear that they do not fully understand what it is they are trying to argue and when it is compared to scripture as a whole, what they are saying can quickly fall apart.

I have to realize the sad truth that there are many out there who do not realize that there are many spirits selling false gospels. I would love to believe that most people are taught what to stay away from, but it’s very evident that many are not. I’m not claiming I have it all down but I will say that I will not reject scripture to test what the Lord is telling me or anyone else. In fact, I encourage it and constantly ask God to correct me if I am incorrect about any topic I might have a strong feeling about. I find others that use gifts of the Holy Spirit to confirm or deny anything that might come up that is not clearly understood or does not align itself through scripture.

I believe that many people are caught up in the lies of having their own personal spirit guide, which they believe is Jesus speaking to them, or some form of secret ways to Heaven that no one else seems to understand. I believe that these are really people who may be bruised and in need of healing. Some may need deliverance.
Many want to feel special and to have some secret or unknown knowledge. To be held above the rest and to know more than anyone else. To be on special speaking terms with the Lord where we hear from Him so clearly it’s unquestionable. The fact is that some people use the words they are hearing and their entire truth when that may not be the case. Would Christ really speak to someone about another believe in a hurtful or hateful way? Would God sit around and gossip about His other children? Would He claim that there is no one else in the world that gets it remotely correct except for that ONE person?
These are spirits that are spreading hatred and confusion that are attaching themselves to believers. I do not believe I have to point out the dangers in this.

We also have to remember that Satan will even masquerade as an angel of light:

For such are false apostles, deceitful workers, transforming themselves into the apostles of Christ.  (14)  And no marvel; for Satan himself is transformed into an angel of light.  (15)  Therefore it is no great thing if his ministers also be transformed as the ministers of righteousness; whose end shall be according to their works. – 2 Corinthians 11:13-15

So we see the importance of testing the spirits. Satan, and those who work for him, can easily pretend to be spirits of light, ministers of righteousness, spreading false doctrines and false truths of how to be closer with Christ or who Christ really is.
The other side of this is that true believers can easily fall into the false teachings. Although their hearts might be for God they may not realize that what they are coming into is NOT what God intended to be taken as His truth.
Not every false prophet or teacher is obvious in their ways. Some of them cannot see or discern what may be speaking to them and they are truly convicted it is the Lord. Some, with that same conviction, will not listen to any other believer that may try to help them see the truth.

All scripture is given by inspiration of God, and is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness:  (17)  That the man of God may be perfect, throughly furnished unto all good works. – 2 Timothy 3:16-17

Scripture should never be thrown out when it comes to testing spirits. It should be used CORRECTLY in ways to truly test them to see if they uphold and not just to back up what people might want to say or believe. Many people use scripture to justify their means and there are far too many that will believe and follow them.

I’m not claiming I have all understanding and know what’s what in this world, but I am certainly interested in working on trying. True discernment comes from the Lord and the only way to utilize it more accurately is to be closer in a relationship with Him. Study His words, communicate with Him regularly, open your heart and worship Him, get on your face and seek the Lord with all your heart, mind, and soul.

I’m not writing this to confuse anyone or accuse anyone of their own actions, I’m writing this because I feel convicted to. I’m not sure if the conviction is through my own heart or His. I see people around me that are lacking in His truth and it incredibly sad to me. They need prayers and unfortunately they need help that they will not accept. I pray that I never become so blind through my own experiences to disregard the true words of God and those who are truly following Him. Those who try to use the gospel for profitable doctrine, for reproof, for correction, and for instruction in righteousness.. So that we too may be a perfect children of God, throughly furnished unto all good works.

Psalm 95:1-8

O come, let us sing unto the LORD:
let us make a joyful noise to the rock of our salvation.
Let us come before his presence with thanksgiving,
and make a joyful noise unto him with psalms.
For the LORD is a great God,
and a great King above all gods.
In his hand are the deep places of the earth:
the strength of the hills is his also.
The sea is his, and he made it:
and his hands formed the dry land.
O come, let us worship and bow down:
let us kneel before the LORD our maker.
For he is our God; and we are the people of his pasture,
and the sheep of his hand. To day if ye will hear his voice,
Harden not your heart, as in the provocation,
and as in the day of temptation in the wilderness:

Why do we need to be entertained?

The feeling the need to be entertained is an addictive habit, comparable to smoking and drugs.

You see it all around you while you’re out and about; children and adults glued to their cell phones, parents bringing tablets in to pacify their kids at restaurants, a constant need for a television to be on in ones household, constant music while in the car or at home, in the work place, in stores; it’s everywhere.
Why does our society feel the need to be entertained? Our culture has turned into one that as an infant to a toddler children are given cell phones and electronic devices to distract and entertain them. As they grow older kids start pleaded for their own cell phone and/or computer until they finally demand such things from their parents. Just a couple of years ago I remember seeing 12-year-olds that demanded having such tools (yes, they are meant to be tools and not for entertainment) and now the age has gotten younger and younger.
I see children that are between the ages of 8-10 walking around with their faces and hands glued to their phones, constantly taking selfies of themselves or with family and friends, texting, all having to have their own Facebook accounts; all the while parents see it as an innocent development. One of the common reasoning for parents giving their kids things as this at such a young age usually consist of pointing out that their children felt inadequate as all their school friends have the most recent development of entertainment, so why can’t they?

Why do we feel a need to be entertained?
A common misconception that most Christians have lately is that by having a need to be entertained we are allowing ourselves to be distracted from God during most parts of the day. That by allowing what the world seems as right for us and our children to enter into our lives we are no longer putting forth what God says is best for our lives and our families.

Many would argue that these devises, meant to be tools, are not something God would want us to be without. Would he really want us to be behind the times? To not be “cool” or “up-to-date?”
God does not require electronics to speak to us, he requires our time. If we are not able to give him our time because of how much junk we allow into our lives, how will we ever truly hear from him?

How can God speak to you when you allow what’s in the world to be a constant distraction for you and your family? How are you setting your children up and teaching them to learn to hear from Him?
Do you believe that God is using social media to get your attention or is it just something to do to keep up with the rest of the world? Will you find God in the movies you watch? Is He verbally speaking through your radios and music? Is that Him texting you constantly throughout the day? Is He running around through your video games helping you learn about His Kingdom?

If you’re still reading this, I would like to challenge you to take the time and compare how much time you give God, your Heavenly Father, to how much time you spend on being entertained by everything else in the world. See who is getting most of your time and think about who is more deserving of it.

For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.

He gave His Son, what are you giving?

Be ye not unequally yoked together with unbelievers: for what fellowship hath righteousness with unrighteousness? and what communion hath light with darkness? And what concord hath Christ with Belial? or what part hath he that believeth with an infidel? And what agreement hath the temple of God with idols? for ye are the temple of the living God; as God hath said, I will dwell in them, and walk in them; and I will be their God, and they shall be my people. Wherefore come out from among them, and be ye separate, saith the Lord, and touch not the unclean thing; and I will receive you, And will be a Father unto you, and ye shall be my sons and daughters, saith the Lord Almighty.
(2 Corinthians 6:14-18 KJV)

Throughout the Bible we are told to come out from among them. To come out from among the world and what the world is doing. If what the world was doing was so innocent, why would God tell us to stay away from it? Is he just a mean Spirit that doesn’t want us to have any fun? Or could it be that there are spiritual reasons we are to stay away? Could it be that maybe He is trying to protect us because He loves us enough already that His only begotten Son died for us?

Without entertainment we feel bored and usually don’t know what to do with our time. We feel stagnant and can easily get antsy. Most may feel that their relationship with God is so boring that they would much rather be doing ANYthing else than spend time with Him. Maybe the problem is not that God and the Bible are boring and we never feel we hear from Him, maybe it’s that there’s too much junk in our lives for Him to communicate with us effectively.
Here’s something to consider when you want to move forward: Note to self: Die to self

Parts of the Wall of Apathy

As soon as the Lord starts telling me to start spending more time with Him I have the hardest time even focusing on him or his words. My mood and attitude towards most things becomes apathetic and lifeless. Try imagining all emotion suddenly being muted in your life; that’s the best way I know how to describe it. Apathy and indifference are some of the hardest things for me to deal with. Not emotionally hard, seeing as how I feel apathetic and/or emotionless, but difficult to push through and move forward. Joy, peace, excitement, conflict, remorse, etc.. I am having difficultly feeling any of those currently and have for a little while.
The concerns come to mind when I do something that I know I shouldn’t, let’s say having a cigarette. The entire time I might be having one (I quit last August and even the thought of one triggers that habit very easily for me) I know I shouldn’t have it. I know that I might be causing myself to kind of “relapse” and it will be harder for me to not be tempted to buy them or want them. I know the physical effects of it on my health and while I might have one anyway, knowing all of these things, I do not feel remorse regarding it. I do ask for forgiveness for it, but what good is that without actually seeking repentance through remorse? It feels as though I might as well not ask for it to begin with if I don’t really mean it. I suppose the knowledge base is there, knowing that I shouldn’t do that and why, despite the feeling basis so that’s something.
At first I wondered if this situation might be results of another “something” from my past or about my habits, behavior, or outlook that needs to be changed. Something I have written before about God healing different parts of me. However, the longer time goes by while nothing is revealed concerning healing in my life the more I realize it’s just a form of warfare.

Not long ago I started feeling more of a need to spend more time praying and speaking with God. More time in my prayer closet, if you will. I used to speak to Him more continually but have kind of fallen out of that habit. Anyway, I started feeling the need and was even told He wanted me to spend more time with him than I have been. Of course looking at it now I see what is going on (the warfare) and although it’s frustrating, it’s something that I will have to continue to pray about and wait for this entrapment to be taken away. To be freed from the nets.
It’s something I need help pushing through, and let me tell you, apathy is not easy to push through with a lack of will power.

In thee, O LORD, do I put my trust;
let me never be ashamed:
deliver me in thy righteousness.
Bow down thine ear to me; deliver me speedily:
be thou my strong rock,
for an house of defence to save me.
For thou art my rock and my fortress;
therefore for thy name’s sake lead me, and guide me.
Pull me out of the net that they have laid privily for me:
for thou art my strength.
Into thine hand I commit my spirit:
thou hast redeemed me, O LORD God of truth.
Psalm 31:1-5

What Side is Your World On?

There have been a lot of topics on my mind recently that I would like to write of though I’m not sure of their timing and will need to pray about them more. One topic that has been on my mind for quite some time is involving around Westcott and Hort and the many different Bible translations we seem to have today. For those who aren’t familiar with Westcott and Hort, they are credited for having found older scrolls than what was used to translate the King James Bible we have today. I disagree with most that think that the older the better in this case, especially considering where their transcripts were found or stored for so many years. There is also the fact that neither men were true believers and it is documented through their own letters to each other during their translations. Many who take their versions as just “easy to read” and in my mind that discredits God’s ability to help us understand His ways.

Another topic I have felt strongly about writing on has to do with the rapture. Though I was raised to believe in it (even read some of the Left Behind series) I do not believe in it anymore. God put a burden on my heart about it and after seeking His guidance, the theology surrounding it feels completely wrong for ways that I will not explain right now. I also believe there are dangers in not only believing in it but also teaching it to others, but I will not get into that now.

I’ve had a difficult time knowing where to start on these topics and have mostly just been doing my own research about them. I love to research and find what others believe compared to what the Bible teaches us, to see how most other religions all connect with each other in ways they are not even aware of (Buddhist, Hindu, Jewish, etc). I also research sects of “Christian” groups, churches, or organizations and see how they compare with the Bible as well. I recently did some research on a Mar Thoma (“Indian-Christian”) church as I know someone who attends periodically. I found a lot of Hindu/Buddhist influences that are still involved in this church and are seen merely as Indian traditions. I found, in my research, that most of their “traditions” are still paying homage to other gods from other religions and I do not believe most are aware of this and the importance of not continuing with such “traditions.”

It’s very important to be aware of what is going on around us in other groups, especially now when false prophets and leaders are pushing to have “oneness with each other.” After that statement you might ask, “Well, what’s the big deal with that? Shouldn’t we get along? Wouldn’t the world be a better place?”

Think not that I am come to send peace on earth: I came not to send peace, but a sword.  (35)  For I am come to set a man at variance against his father, and the daughter against her mother, and the daughter in law against her mother in law.  (36)  And a man’s foes shall be they of his own household.  (37)  He that loveth father or mother more than me is not worthy of me: and he that loveth son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me.  (38)  And he that taketh not his cross, and followeth after me, is not worthy of me.  (39)  He that findeth his life shall lose it: and he that loseth his life for my sake shall find it. – Matthew 10:34-39

Beware of false prophets, which come to you in sheep’s clothing, but inwardly they are ravening wolves.  (16)  Ye shall know them by their fruits. Do men gather grapes of thorns, or figs of thistles?  (17)  Even so every good tree bringeth forth good fruit; but a corrupt tree bringeth forth evil fruit.  (18)  A good tree cannot bring forth evil fruit, neither can a corrupt tree bring forth good fruit.  (19)  Every tree that bringeth not forth good fruit is hewn down, and cast into the fire.  (20)  Wherefore by their fruits ye shall know them. – Matthew 7:15-20

Beloved, believe not every spirit, but try the spirits whether they are of God: because many false prophets are gone out into the world. – 1 John 4:1

We are here to find God. More and more I am realizing how much our generations and the generations before us have slacked off from a real relationship with God. I’m not claiming that everyone is lacking, but a lot of them are. I’ve lived it myself, I know how it feels to want more. To attend a church and go to Bible studies every week only to find yourself still thirsting, still wanting more, still.. empty. But whosoever drinketh of the water that I shall give him shall never thirst; but the water that I shall give him shall be in him a well of water springing up into everlasting life. (John 4:14)
Why are so many people today still thirsting if we are truly being taught what Christ came here to teach us? Why are so many still lost? So many living the church life, having the word of God, and seeing it, and God Himself, as a joke? Because of watered down teachings. Why are so many falling away or buying in the false teachings, just to have acceptance and temporary joy? So many are filled with repetitive songs that have lost their meaning, with repetitive study plans that don’t break open what God is speaking about TODAY. Oh yes, they want to mold us into good little Christians, but the world was not turned upside down by factory made soldiers!

But the Jews which believed not, moved with envy, took unto them certain lewd fellows of the baser sort, and gathered a company, and set all the city on an uproar, and assaulted the house of Jason, and sought to bring them out to the people. And when they found them not, they drew Jason and certain brethren unto the rulers of the city, crying, These that have turned the world upside down are come hither also; Whom Jason hath received: and these all do contrary to the decrees of Caesar, saying that there is another king, one Jesus. – Acts 17:5-7

I want to be one of those. Through the blood of Christ and His true way, I want to be one that turns the world upside down from what it believes today. How many see it happening in their cities? How many see the impact? How many miracles of healing the sick, healing the blind, healing the crippled, and casting out demons do you see in your church that are true and real? How many reach out to the homeless, the fatherless, and the widows? I for one, don’t see it today.

For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. – John 3:16

He gave his only begotten Son for our sakes.. We can never fully repay him for that.. but what are you going to do to try?

Pslam 32

Blessed is he whose transgression is forgiven, whose sin is covered.
Blessed is the man unto whom the LORD imputeth
not iniquity, and in whose spirit there is no guile.
When I kept silence, my bones waxed old through my roaring all the day long.
For day and night thy hand was heavy upon me:
my moisture is turned into the drought of summer. Selah.
I acknowledged my sin unto thee, and mine iniquity have I not hid.
I said, I will confess my transgressions unto the LORD;
and thou forgavest the iniquity of my sin. Selah.
For this shall every one that is godly pray unto thee in a time when thou mayest be found:
surely in the floods of great waters they shall not come nigh unto him.
Thou art my hiding place; thou shalt preserve me from trouble;
thou shalt compass me about with songs of deliverance. Selah.
I will instruct thee and teach thee in the way which thou shalt go:
I will guide thee with mine eye.
Be ye not as the horse, or as the mule, which have no understanding:
whose mouth must be held in with bit and bridle, lest they come near unto thee.
Many sorrows shall be to the wicked: but he that trusteth in the LORD, mercy shall compass him about.
Be glad in the LORD, and rejoice, ye righteous:
and shout for joy, all ye that are upright in heart.
Psalm 32