Sometimes I find all the talk about the judgement that is here and the judgement that will be here can leave me in a state of hopelessness. A hopelessness for those who do not know the Lord; Christ as their Savior.

It’s in these times I often have to remind myself that we are His vessels upon this earth, here not by our own power but for His power to be worked and revealed through us.
We alone are nothing, empty vessels. But we, knowing Him, are filled with the Spirit, given to us by the Father.
There are many more vessels that have yet to be revealed. Many more that will also be filled with the Spirit in His good timing. Many revealed that have not yet been filled.

And it is for those vessels and for the glory of God that we keep on and pursue that which we have been given.

There is much hope, and all hope in Christ. What we do now forms and shapes the future for those future vessels to come forth, not by our own power but through His.

Bear ye one another’s burdens, and so fulfil the law of Christ.
For every man shall bear his own burden.

For he that soweth to his flesh shall of the flesh reap corruption; but he that soweth to the Spirit shall of the Spirit reap life everlasting.
And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not.
As we have therefore opportunity, let us do good unto all men, especially unto them who are of the household of faith.
Galatians  6:2, 5, 8-10


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Pressure in the head

On and off, while at Brandon’s house, I have started feeling a strong pressure in the front of my head, above and between my eyes. The last time I felt this was Sunday, the 29th of June, which happened to also be a night that both Brandon and I had some slightly unnerving experiences outside of his house. I know this because I had written down a prayer asking what the deal was with this pressure. If it was sinuses because of my bad allergies or if I was picking up on another presence, as I usually start to feel bad in general when I have it. Typically I would have blown this off as being allergies, and it wasn’t until previous dates that I started to wonder if I was picking up on something else.

It happened to be that the first night I asked the Lord about this Brandon and I both experienced what was around us in the spiritual realm. It was quite unnerving and alarming at the time. The time that I wrote about this pressure was right after this experience as I was writing it down too and suddenly felt compelled to change topics. A part of me will have to assume that it was the Lord that brought this to my attention as I have constantly assumed it was my allergies.

Today started as a normal, sleepy day. I didn’t quite want to get out of bed, didn’t sleep well last night, and kept having strange (and very detailed) dreams. Normally when I have such detailed dreams I will try to write them down but since they were interrupted so many times by my alarm going off every ten minutes, I wasn’t able to remember most of them.

I got to Brandon’s house and we started reading our Bibles, which is about all we do now (not complaining at all). As the afternoon started to become early evening, I started getting incredibly sleepy. Looking back at the amount of caffeine I had today I probably shouldn’t have been so tired. I dismissed this and continued trying to focus on what I was reading. Continue reading

Outcome of Silence

In regards to my previous post, In Moments of Silence, I felt the need to explain a part of my realizations.
First off, God has been speaking to Brandon and I about our coming future, whatever it may be, and with me being the type of person that tries to plan everything (a bit of a control freak) I became consumed with trying to plan what was not even fully revealed.
Through daydreaming of what could come about (though I don’t yet know) I began to feel as though I’m not doing enough or I’m not on the right track of what will come about. All of these feelings were my own, though I could say that I’m not sure if there was emphasis from the enemy in regards to this, but for the most part it was my own doing. I felt I was constantly concerned and troubled that I wasn’t able to hear what the Lord was telling me to do or what I needed to be working on to help go towards the future He has planned for us. I was letting my fears and doubts consume me all the while constantly asking for direction and guidance.
Last night as I was in bed I was praying and asking if I need to go to school, focus on studying the Bible, continue writing my thoughts or things that happened online, quitting my job, searching for a new job, etc etc. While I was going through this list of things I wasn’t sure I should or shouldn’t be focused on I got a very clear answer from Him telling me to STOP. To just stop talking, stop fretting and worried, and basically just to shut up. After that all of these thoughts ceased and I just sat in silence.
I praise the Lord for such clarity and for being so gentle in the way that He deals with my undoings. God has been telling me that as far as my future goes, the time is not yet here for me to be so active in what He will want me to do. Right now, I need to keep doing what I’m already doing and trust that He will tell me when it is time. And in that time He will let me know what it is I need to do.

This whole time I’ve been praying for clarity and felt all I was getting was silence, when really it was me that needed to be silent. It’s a good thing to remember to trust that the Lord will tell you when it’s time to do whatever it is He has planned for you. It’s not for us to go through our lives worrying about being on the right path and worrying we’ll miss the mark. He loves us and wants us to remember to count on Him and He has our best interests in mind even through the hard times.

Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the LORD.
Psalms 27:14

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